What I learned today.

What have I learned today? Not to drive over the speed limit and to be thankful that God saves people's lives. What a glimpse of the devastation that would come with a friends death looks like. I learned that just because you spend most of your day sleeping does not me you won't be tired. I learned that when you stick your toe in the sinking sand of sin you get sucked under real fast. I learned that I can still get angry. Impossibly angry. I learned that just because people have respectable traits does not mean that they are all around respectable. I learned that I have made irreparable and monumental mistakes. I learned that I can feel genuine hate for others and in turn, myself. I learned that I have qualities that my friends berate on a frequent basis. I learned that by writing daily in an honest way about myself and looking back upon the most frequent of posts, something is beginning to be very very wrong with me, and I am glad that I have seen it before it gets too bad. I have also learned that I have no idea what I need to do to make the wrong right. Apparently that's what I've learned today.

10/9/11