Nightmares

Most of my dreams involve someone chasing me, whether very near or very far away, and trying to kill me. This doesn't bother be very much anymore considering it's become a regular occurrence, and most of the time it ends up being much like a video game: if I lose, it starts over and I get a chance to try something new. I like to think my dreams give me an extra place to learn about myself, what works and what doesn't, and how to be courageous. I once went through a phase where I was terrified that if someone was in trouble, I would be too afraid to help them. I would have dreams that my friends were being attacked and I was hiding, that someone was in trouble and I was too afraid to go help them at risk of getting hurt myself. I kept having these dreams until I learned to man up and risk my life for the sake of others: sometimes I died, sometimes I lived. That literally translated over to the way I live my life.

In my dreams I choose my own actions, and I feel pain. Last night in my dreams I would wake up and be laying on a bed, or a table, and someone would be standing over me. These were people I knew and it was someone different almost every time. So I would wake up, they would talk to me for maybe a moment, and then would proceed to attempt to hold me down and eat me alive. I got no sleep, went in and out of terrified dreams all night, and woke up a sleep deprived bitch.

Why is this important? I want to find the value of sleep. Dreaming is a way for me to learn, to experience, to mold and shape my life. You'd be surprised by the character changes that occur after you've been chewed on and pulled out people's hair all night. Getting sleep allows me to learn, change, vent, adventure, experience, and renew. And if I don't get sleep I end up a miserable, deadpan, stuffy and sick disaster (like the whole of this morning): and that really affects the quality of my day.

Sleeping is not an extension of the day before you go to sleep, it's the beginning of the day that is to come. That's one reason why it's important.

PS This post it pending a picture. When I looked up a picture of what I wanted, it freaked me out so much that I'm not sure I really want to put it on here...in fear of the viewers sanity. And my own when reading this back. So...we'll see.

Instead of horrifying pictures you get this:



1/11/11