How I felt today. It hasn't just been today though: it's been possibly the last three days. When I have to be, I can be the most motivated, get three hours of sleep, drink an energy drink for breakfast, study for 10 hours straight and repeat type of person. But when it's most important, I have no control over the unmotivated and hazy feeling in my mind. I'm groping to be what I know I need to be, but my minds not there and no amount of searching can fix that. I know I need to go into crazy work mode: but all I can be is relaxed and content. I thought I was in control of something seemingly so simple.
I am two extremes: a powerhouse and a sigh.
In between I'm a clown: awkward and purposeless.
It's impossible to fake. I don't know if any of this coming off right. Just look at the picture.
12/14/10
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