Leadership

I went for a run with a friend and afterward sat on the stairs of my front deck in the cold and dark to talk about school. The more classes I fail, the more I find myself re-evaluating what I should major in and what I want to do with my life. I have so many things that I'm interested in that deciding on a major seems nigh impossible. I could go any direction. The more I think about times in my life where I've filled roles that have been most fulfilling and where I've felt most like me, the more I realize those times have been when I've been a leader. It's not because I'm a feminist who is determined to claim her right to "equality," but because I honestly feel that God has created me a certain way to fill a certain role. I think God has gifted me to be bold, confident, forward, honest, compassionate, and courageous in ways that come out strongest when I fulfill a leadership position. In a way, it doesn't really matter to me what I major in, as long as I can be a leader someday, because I think that's what I was created to do. Can you major in that? Can you major in leadership? 'Cause on one hand I want to major in something I'm interested in, but I also want to take classes that will best help me to be a leader. In knowing this, it begs a question concerning my role as a woman in the Church. If I know that I was made with qualities that best enable me to be a leader, and I know that as a follower of God I am made to play a role in the Church body, how am I to apply my leadership qualifications to the Church? Am I to only lead Sunday school or classes just for women because of the way Ephesians 5 has been interpreted by the typical church? I'm a leader. How am I to put that into the context of the typical marriage and Church body structure of the modern church without having limitations?

I just know I was made to lead.

4/14/11