Sticky note: junior high

“There’s no need to miss someone from your past-
There’s a reason they didn’t make it to your future”

"Never fight for anyone that isn't willing to fight for you"

These were over dramatic status updates from the same girl. She posted a series of
them like this for quite awhile and as much as I hated them I kept them. They seemed
dumb and at the same time they seemed like advice that I needed to be taking. Advice
that I neither wanted to take nor believe was true.

9/30/11

Sticky note: kiss a tree

"I'm so happy I could just kiss a tree!"

I have no idea. But someone said it and it must have brought
some joy to my day, because I wrote it down.

9/29/11

Sticky note: I'm gonna leave you

"I'm gonna leave you the first chance I get."
-"The River" by Manchester Orchestra

Every time I hear it I feel it. I don't like that this resonates with me.

9/28/11

Sticky Notes

The date is 11/21/11 at 3:34am. I have just gone in and filled up all the blank spaces between that day and this one with the contents of the virtual sticky notes on my screen. It's a documentation of the silly, the deep, and the things that strike me hard enough to make me write them down (only to be forgotten on my desktop). These quotes have been on my computer a long time and I think the fact that I put them up and left them there for so long says something. So there they are: a tribute to the days I left out and the sticky notes that abound.

9/27/11

You can't stop the beat

9/26/11

Etser

God made a helper for man.

An "etser"
And people like to tell me
that that sums up woman's relationship to man.
That that gives definition to my life.

Well I'm a woman.
And the same word is used to describe God's relationship to Israel.
He's an etser.
And he's a leader.
So I like to remind people that man needed something else.
Someone to be his partner.
A "kenegdo"
An equal.

So as being a part of mankind.

I feel like I need an etser.

And I think that's biblical.

9/25/11

Sit Back And Relax

Putting together James Project, had it been all in my control, would have been an epic failure this week. I had no food and no way for us to get there. And not very many people. And I was starting to panic a bit by the day before. But through an off handed conversation I realized that one of the people going was old enough to be van certified, and so I asked him early in the morning if he would take the quiz and lo and behold he took matters into his own hands. He took the quiz, got van certified, went and picked up the keys, and took care of everything.

Hallelujah.

I called Plant Services and there happened to be a van available at such short notice.

Hallelujah.

During the late night 80's Dance I ran into a friend who happened to be security and he met me afterwards to let me into a closet to get work supplies.

Hallelujah.

After the 80's dance I ran into two friends who decided they wanted to go to James Project as well. They drove me to the store after midnight to buy lunch supplies, helped me make decisions on what to get and the next day provided a cooler and ice for me to use for it all.

Hallelujah.

The next day some people showed up that weren't signed up and I didn't know they were coming, and after worrying all week that we wouldn't have enough people to really accomplish anything we had twelve people ready to go: just enough to fill the van completely.

Hallelujah.

And the whole day that we worked the sun was hot and we were dripping sweat but it was completely beautiful outside and we loved it. We laughed and worked hard and kept good spirits. We spent a long time relaxing and eating lunch together by the creek, dipping our feet in the cold water and collecting giant bugs. We laughed and connected and it didn't feel like work at all: it felt like we were a group of friends just spending an enjoyable day together.

Hallelujah.

God orchestrates everything to work out perfectly. He brings people into our lives that play Christ to us, and he makes sure we are completely provided for. Key people were Christ to me leading up to and during James Project and I could not be more thankful to them for their hearts of gold. I was shown grace and mercy when I most needed it, and despite the fact that I'm the leader of James Project, God clearly showed me that he is the leader of James Project and my only job is to set up the dates and allow his amazing people be his hands and feet in the world.

Hallelujah.

9/24/11